My years at school were going great, amazing friends and amazing family. Everything was perfect. until, I messed up. I don’t like talking about what I did, bit I will tell you my whole story so here it goes:
my best friend was seeing this lad, but he was sending me pictures and videos, he asked for a picture of me with no clothes on. So I did. I told my best mate he sent pics of himself, which was a stupid thing to do because he then told her what I did. She was obviously mad at me and didn’t want me as a best friend or even friend.
Then, one day at school, 2 off my mates walked past me and shoved me, I didn’t know why they did it, so I asked my Mate to ask them why? And that’s when I found out that things were spreading about me, about the pictures and that I was bisexual. People started to hate me and talk bout me. All my friends who I thought were true friends, weren’t. Every lunch and break I’d go to the toilets and cry. Nobody cared, I felt worthless and I didn’t want to be here.
Life at home wasn’t good either, my mum nd dad were always fighting and my mum would hit my dad and throw things, then both of them seperately would come to me expecting me to choose sides, I loved them both.
Everything was getting on top of me, I didn’t have any friends to talk to. It all got to much, and before I went to my lesson, I took an overdose.
I also have no confidence in myself because I think I’m ugly and fat, so I nver spoke in class and people would call me quiet and ‘the girl who never speaks’ that really annoyed me because they didn’t know what I was going through. I took a overdose more then once, but didn’t take enough, I wanted to die.
I’m glad I didn’t die though because things are starting to look up, I still suffer with depression but every now and then, things go good.
I really want to help people who feel like they wnt to kill themselves because everyone deserves a life.
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Confidence is necessary for self-respect, for which self-respect creates friends. Remember that.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mZLpDuuf40&feature=fvwp&NR=1
This song should make you feel better.
~BrotherJameson
Schoold days for teens, its always been harder for the ones that seem to not fit in with the “In” crowd. Betrayals seem to be the chief learning curve growing up, which perosn do I trust the most to say this or that too, and then we find out they told someone else our secrets. Then the lies and false stories based in some small part truth although yet still a lie. A half truth is an entire lie.
Always good to hear some have some hope about a future other than suicidal thoughts.
I’m glad that things are starting to look up for you.
Everyone makes mistakes – it’s part of being human. The important thing is to learn from them and try not to repeat them.
I also know how problems at home can make things difficult for you at school. I went through that, too. I look back now and wish I had done somethings differently, but at the time you aren’t always in the best frame of mind.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. And good luck.