I hv divorced for almost 6 years but I still felt the pain inside. Beforehead, everybody telling me tht I will hv a new life and getting better, just few months later, few years later. however, nothing hv happened. My life is just going harsher & darker. I didn’t hv a job now, and hv no money, ,,,,parent’s health are getting worse n worse, I can’t communicate well with my brother/sisters, i hvn’t hv many friends, and they can’t always be with us, i feel so lonely lonely lonely. Every morning I wake up, I just ask myself What I can do then ?  I really dont know how to keep life going …I keep thinking of suicide these days/weeks but, just afraiding of , no one really care abt, and worst,, no one noticed my death, until my body deteriorated  then get found…… I found myself under the darkest/deepest part of the valley & cant climb up a bit..
I want to hv a new job n a new start, but God seems hv forgotten me, and wont grant me any one little chance again….I want to hv someone to be with me, but besides my doggy, they are just so busy n hv their own life. I am so scared for every minutes tht I am alone……I yelled out to sky but heard no echo ever !