Reality…

Realizing so slowly

That Angel is a mama’s boy…

A pretender

A user

A liar

Just like this one girl that I was best friends with

Its weird, cuz I never had notice it before

Until now.

All the memories

Have changed

The happy ending never there…

Everything has disappeared into thin air

but problem is now

I don’t care

Too me everything before

Never was meant

Everything that I dreamed about

Wasn’t real

Angel says he cares

But reality,

Just like the girl

Her mother said the same

Thankfully now

I know

No more hopes;

No more dreams

Not even a bit of light saved

Darkness

Covered once again

I have been

Killed

Returning with just broken wings

Only “her” memories have been restored

Angel was never mine to begin with.

All I could do is die

Tortured by all living souls

Fly away

With suffering pain

Fly away

Hoping to forget

It was never my reality

It was all part of the nightmare

 

 

I don’t know what to believe anymore

It is all history

The lies gathered up

The truth placed on the table

It was nothing but a lie

I knew it

I had a hunch

but I never wanted to believe in it

I knew one of these days it was bound to happened

but with a person who I really trusted.

I told him everything

I know I get it.

but how blinded could I be?

Just like “her”

I may say

but it took me 9 years to recover from that pain

Now that I am back I really don’t want to stay anymore

Now that I am back, I rather forget

Being in love was stupid

I thought breaking up with him was my regret; a guilty path

I’ll try not to be in love ever again

Its a damn weakness

Taking risks are pointless

Cuz at the end

Its just painful lies

 

 

Someone that I loved and really trusted, turned into or was just like her that whole entire time. Ex’s will never be friends, no matter what. Ex’s will never fall back in love… Even if it was true love. They’ll never get back together. If I don’t talk to her now, after 9 years; then there’s no point, we will never talk ever again. I know I messed up and I seriously thought I could have fixed this; this time… but its true. All I wanted to do is say hello, but I can’t. We were never friends, we were never enemies, we were just strangers. And I never got on with my life, as much. Always worried about Angel, always wondering what he was doing. If he was okay. But know I see it. He made excuses, cuz he’s mother hated me. And I was blinded by the words. Blinded by caring about another person.

 

Moving on?

Moving on to what?

Lies?

My mind has been messed up once again.

And I don’t care anymore.