I could almost kill myself out of happiness right now. I’m on the phone with her while she is going to sleep. This is how we used to always be when we were together. We were 1000 miles apart but we had such a strong bond. There were countless nights of me talking her to sleep and not hanging up until I knew she was asleep. We had a video chat that lasted 12 hours one time. God I love her so much and I dread the day that somebody else comes and takes these nights away from me. It’s just the fact that I know I can’t call these night “ours” anymore. They are only mine until she finds somebody else. I love being the one to comfort her when she is sick. I love being there for her when she needs it. I’m literally a slave to my love for her. Why can’t life be like a movie? Why can’t I just drive to her and profess my love and my sorrow and scoop her back into my arms? It won’t be long until she finds somebody else. No amount of time is long enough for me. I want to die right now and make this moment my last.
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I don’t get it so why don’t u tell her u like her? why is it impossible? U really love her why torture ur self,…
She knows I love her. She was the one that broke our relationship off. Click my name and read one or two of my past posts if you want the whole story. I’m not trying to be rude about it. The problem is that I know she still loves me also.
I had a situation so close to what youre saying she moved to florida while i stayed in texas we talked everynight for ours an sleep on the phone Everything was so special to me everysingle moment I visited once and she did a few times as well somehow things started to fall apart but in the end well i hold her now Its complicated in my situation though i doubt that youre going through it It kills me when im not with her Points is dont let her go if you love her you can make it you never know you might end up marryin her and living happy life
So fucking creepy. I live in Texas and she moved to Florida for college. But yes, I do feel you.
weird bro ha she did to but she bak already To much drama i hate it
I appreciate the encouragement from the maybe ending up back with her. I had missed the last line of your comment at first. I would give my entire world for one more chance with her. She is the only thing that truly matters in my life. To be perfectly honest, it hurts like hell being friends now. But I know that I have to do it. If she can be friends with me and want nothing else then I will deal with it. Having her in my life makes all the pain worth it. I highly doubt I have any chance of being with her ever again. She is far too “normal” and just can’t deal with who I am. For tonight I will sleep and hope that my dreams are filled with our memories. My dreams are the only place I can still feel her in my arms.
Trent and los,I live In Texas to!!!Houston Tx!!!and los,my name Is Car-los haha.Weird coincidence?
haha I know I wish It were like a movie.Then everythinq would be perfect.
I’m not looking for perfect. I just wish I could get her back. Everybody always wins them back in the movies.
Looks like Texas isn’t such a happy place right now, lol.
Well yeah I quess I’m not either.So why did yall break up?
haha your so riqht!
This getting to weird for me ha Im from that H-town to and my name is carlos to ha Yeah id be so easy if we were in a movie happy ending
She just couldn’t do it anymore. I went through a terrible year where my whole life fell down around me. I had terrible mental breakdowns and she ended up catching the overflow. I feel so terrible for causing her pain. I finally got my life sorted out and I’m working to get everything back on track, but she just can’t deal with worrying about if it will happen again. I don’t blame her. I hold myself fully responsible because I was the one that lost it. She stayed with me through so much, but everyone has to break at some point.
That is very sad. it is rare to love someone so much and to loose them is very difficult.. sorry i was confused at first i thought u were keeping ur feelings to urself, that didn’t make any sense.
But yeah if life were a movie there will always be a happy ending.