Hello

I’m 23 and until very very recently, I would go week to week, with full intention of killing myself but seemed to end up delaying my suicide until the next weekend for one reason or another. Nothing on this planet seems worth pursuing, I know. Working a job I hate for money, to buy more material goods? No thanks. People are uncaring and cannot see past their own trivial lives to what’s truly important. The world seems like such a cold and lonely place. I’ve read a lot about Starseed souls and the indigo children phenomenon which I believe I am a part of, and you very well might be as well. It might be worth Googling it. I’ve endured agonizing emotional pain nearly my entire life, but only recently, something changed inside. I began feeling a sense of happiness inside. And it’s not from any medication, as I don’t believe in the stuff. Why should I deny what I’m truly feeling to be a zombie? So how can I experience happiness in this shithole world? The only way I can explain it, is the pain I experienced my entire life was from the disconnection from people. The feeling that I couldn’t connect with others in any way that was meaningful to me, even if I was one of their ‘good’ friends. Only when I fully disconnected from everything, and truly felt I could walk out on life at any time did I finally feel a sense of relief and dare I even say, empowerment. By accepting the fact that these are not my people here, and this planet is not my home, I am able to endure this place a bit longer; And maybe even help others at school who might also be hiding their emotional turmoil of alienation inside. That way I can try to find some connection; And until something else sets me off, which I will then leave this place without any regrets, I will try to continue on. And that is how I found some sense of inner peace.

So don’t be afraid to cross over either, this is a free will universe and there is no punishment in the afterlife, only whatever punishment we set for ourselves. Once on the other side, you will be amazed at how quick and beautiful your ethereal body is and your spirit guides will retrieve you from the Earth to be reunited with your soul group once again; You’ll even be with the souls of the people you left behind on the Earth as ‘time’ is only a limitation of the human 3D experience. You’ll laugh in absolute joy as you remember just how good existing truly is as the veil of amnesia you were born with is completely gone now and rejoice that the trivial trials of the Earth are over! You might be slightly disappointed in yourself that you didn’t hold on longer, but you’ll quickly forget as you remember how brave you were for incarnating in the first place, and will be filled with pride at your accomplishments as you begin your million year party-vacation with your truest family, fulfilling your wildest dreams in the most fantastic places and dimensions possible, knowing you aren’t forced down any ‘path’ to ascend and that you aren’t forced to enduring any lifetime to ‘ascend’.