hope

i was just trapped by someone.he got my mobile number and daily chatting and at last he proposed me…i am very stupid to accept him even without knowing him,his behavior,his background.i just believed him in such a way that i used to neglect my parents too..once he came to my house when my parents were not there..then he saw me in naked position..after that incidence..with in a few months he went out of country..one day my brother came to my house and i told him that i was loving someone and he wants to marry me after he returns to India.because of caste matter my brother didnt agree to the marriage.then my brother called to him and warned him not to make a call further to my sister.. then he begun to blackmail me about that naked situation..that matter was known to my brother.he told all this to my parents. we are from traditional families..they scolded me made promise with me that not to repeat this again..upto my 17th year i used to be very perfect in every aspects..but in this matter i behaved very stupidly..now i just want to die..nut thinking of my parents..i am very good girl..he just trapped me..but i really loved him..thought of marrying him after i had settled in my career..now i am doing my graduation..one of my college topper..not able to focus on studies..just want to die…no hope…no motivation…no freedom .no individuality. now i am feeling very depressed..feeling lonely..sometimes getting thoughts of going with him…but thinking the promise given to my parents…plz help me to avoid all these thoughts and help me in being perfect