I lay in the bathtub today. Just let the shower run over me. Put in the plug. Held still in the fetal position and cried. When the water reached my nose and mouth I didn’t lift my head. Once I was close to losing conciousness, however, I pulled out and breathed, and felt my heart pound annoyingly in my chest. Just a reminder of how I’m too chicken to bless myself by ending all of it. I’m too afraid to die, and too afraid to live. Guess I’ll spend another day like I have the past three weeks, lying in my bed doing nothing but cry because I’m too darn afraid to do anything else.
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So can you tell me why youre so miserable maybe we can relate and on here a lot of people comment on things
I have no idea why I’m so miserable. There is no logical reason. Mostly I just want to get away from all of the due dates and pressures to perform better. I’m a music major in my second year at my university, but I’m not a great singer. I’m just here to love music, and wish that was enough. I’m tired of letting people down, and very stressed. Mostly though, I’m just tired, and tired of being tired. I feel such pain and cry constantly and want to die, but really I have no reason. I just hurt.
I ‘ve tried , but every time i try , i get scared.. So i understand you a lot …I want to , but i don’t want to …. its complicated. i mean its just a bottle of random pills , why is it so hard?