If i can do it so can you!

Hi guys i’ve posted on this quite a bit earlier on this year but the difference this time is that i’m feeling a LOT better! I know you’ll read this and probably think ‘she’s wrong’ or ‘i dont care what she’s saying’, because i would’ve probably thought the same thing in your position. However i can hand-on-my-heart say that you will overcome this and feel so much better. This is just a dark patch we unfortunately have to tackle unlike the majority of ‘cheerful’ people we have to put up with daily. Somehow you will survive this and will be amazing, you will be able to show your strength as no crap will bring you to the point where you consider ending your life anymore.
After serious thought and consideration i came to the point where i couldn’t go through with hurting my mother. Even though we have fights and she pretty much alienates me from her life i just couldn’t let her live the rest of her life knowing her daughter was dead before her and then possibly becoming suicidal herself and feeling what i had- no one deserves to feel like this. So somehow i managed to drag myself from my hole and started to realise that my negativity was pushing me further down into my own self-pity pit and that to get out i’d have to make some serious changes such as think positively about EVERYTHING. This sounds strange and it didn’t work for the first few weeks but after a while of reprogramming my brain i managed to see things through a different light and now i feel great.
I guess what i’m trying to say (badly) is that you will overcome this if you try to. If you dont try you’ll never know how to experience some form of happiness until the day you die NATURALLY!