i want to text her. i know i shouldn’t. at worst she’ll get angry, and at best she’ll just ignore me. actually, i don’t know which would really be worst / best.
even just a simple, “hi, i hope you had a good day…”
if she cared, she would text me.
i text her though, i am labeled as annoying and/or pathetic.
i hate texting. this is not how people were meant to (or should) communicate.
stupid “DING” of the phone gets me all worked up.
i want to text her. i know i shouldn’t.
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I FEEL THE EXACT SAME WAY!
Don’t text her! Forget about her see if she then remembers you. If not walk away. Trust me I am a girl.
i feel your pain, i want to text him so badly, but i know nothing good is going to come of it, and if he texts me later, i know nothing good will come of that either, because it will be nothing but nastiness.
i know i shouldn’t. and most of the time i don’t. but it drives me insane trying to understand how she has become so disconnected. it would be one thing if i texted her with something like, “please come back to me”, or “i’m sorry, i love you so much” i understand how that could be interpreted as too much. but a plain and simple “hello”…?
i was forced into no longer saying the words, i love you, to her nearly a year ago now. we used to end every phone call and every text conversation with it. always. and if one of us forgot, or was in a hurry, we would always call back as soon as we could just to be able to say it.
it’s the trying to make sense of the way she is that destroys me. she is not like this, but she insists on acting like it. i miss her. i miss us. so much.
unfortunately, those are the moronic things that i text.
it’s not moronic. you are just saying exactly what you are thinking and feeling. believe me, i want to say these things to her as well. but i also want to respect her wishes that i not say them.
at this point, she knows i love her more than anything. she knows i want her to be part of my life again. but if i continue to tell her things that she doesn’t want to hear from me, then it only goes to push her further away (though i don’t know how much further is really possible at this point…)
there is nothing wrong with speaking the truth of your heart, other than it becomes vulnerable to all the hurtful responses. i know i am not strong enough to handle that though.
were you able to eat anything today M’n’M?