I’m really sick of dead separation with my loved ones. This is the reason I don’t want to live anymore. My grand mother left me six months ago. I can’t ever see her anymore. My grandmother ,who was always there for me, was not existed anymore. It’s really (really) painful, I cry almost ever night. She died from dementia. I didn’t take great care of her. I was impatient and yell at her sometimes. So I CANT FORGIVE MYSELF. Also I don’t want to see my loved one die anymore. So I want to stop being alive . Life is depressing, anything can go wrong any time. I don’t think Depression is disease. Life actually is depressing. Only Persons who think life is pleasant are wrong.
I really despise people who’re killing animal for food. Human are really cruel, torturing and killing animals for variety of purpose. I’m not fit in this world. I’m don’t like human
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It is sad when you loose someone you love and you must not feel guilty at what you have said or done. Your Grandmother will have understood how difficult it was for you.
You are right, life can be depressing, and you are also right about how humans treat animals. But you know it will be people like you that will change things. You have to stop blaming yourself for everything that is wrong in this world. You sound like you are a caring person to be saying these things. If you are, then give yourself time to get over your loss. Keep strong the world needs caring people like you.
No life-form on earth is completely self sufficient. Plants take nutrients and sunlight from other plants, animals eat animals. That’s just the way it goes.
the only reason things go bad is because god throws stuff at us when its unexpected and as long as you pray for him to take away your sins you will be okay god is there and is willing to help everyone dies and theres no doubt about it. We learn from our mistakes the only reason you would yell is because you were hurt seeing her like that.
Its not your Fault. dementia is evil. People die. She was old right. Having to care for some one with dementia Got to be hard right. See some one loose in they mind. So you were impatient and yelled. You were carin for some with dementia. Its not your Fault.
I bet there’s not a care-giver in the world, professional or relative, that hasn’t felt the impatience you describe. It is extremely stressful, especially caring for relative. Now that your grandmother is gone, I would dare to say you probably feel relief, and that you feel guilty for being relieved. DON’T. It’s perfectly normal for someone caring for relative to feel this once the person passes. You do not feel it because you didn’t love her. Dementia, Alzheimers, whatever, it’s a lot of someone to handle.
Please realize that you have been through a whole lot, you are stressed, and most likely clinically depressed. If you can see a doctor, please do so. it will help so much. I wouldn’t doubt that you have stress disorder from all this.
Please don’t kill yourself, everything you feel right now is completely normal. Take it easy on yourself. And not to sound corny, but death is a part of life. Your grandmother taught you many things, and now it is time for you to honor her teachings and be the best person you can be.