So i had a boyfriend. i was only 12 going on 13 at the time and was not thinking straight. we started dating when i moved back from texas and this is what happened. So i had alll my friends over for a welcome home party and everything was going amazing but one thing. my best friend gina was depressed because her and her boyfriend broke up, but the thing is she broke up with him. i was playing around and started to flirt with him not thinking anything was going to get serous till my friend emily stepped in and say we should date. we got to know each other more and more then we finally dated, i thought it was going to be a week realshinshiip thing but i was wrong. we dated till school started and then april 2 came and everything went down hill. me and him were dating for 8 months at the time and i thought he really loved me so it got my serous. finally we thought me and him where ready so we went to his house and had sex. i didn’t really know anything about it nor did he but it just kind of happened. after i felt like nothing, he ignored me for the rest of the night i spent the night that night and he didnt say one word about it, i felt totally used. the next day i went home and texted him asking if everything was fine and he said it was. a week or 2 later he dumped me. he was high and said i was worthless and that he was scared by me. i felt worthless i felt use. He didnt cuddle with me after he didnt even say i love you to me after. i still to this day feel used from a year ago still. am i really that worthless.?
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are you kidding me? on a suicide website? thats going to happen many many many more times, and dont even think about suicide because of kid love, guys are jerks, and many people will lash out and try to make you feel bad when they are embarrassed, or put on the spot in front of their friends. he is insecure, because he probably feels like a inadequate lover, as most children are. so he calls you some names, and he feels good about himself. you flirted with a guy to feel good about yourself, it went too far, lesson learned. dont hop in the sack with another guy until you are out of your parents house.
I don’t think “worthless” is the word I would use. Naive seems more appropriate and I don’t say that just because of your age. When it comes to relationships, I can be pretty naive and I’m 37. The truth is that many of us are “hopeless romantics” and want to believe and see the best in people we bond with, but you must learn to think and feel objectively, before making decisions with potentially huge consequences.
I agree with Erictex85. You should definitely wait until you know your boundaries, capabilities, mind-set and long term goals, before taking on the stresses of a sexual relationship. You have plenty of time…trust me.
im sorry, i shouldn’t be so harsh, but im bitter, very bitter. You dont deserve to be talked to like that. its obvious you are hurt, and im sorry. The one thing i think I should tell you, is not to lose any hope from the relationships you are going to have while you are still living with guardians. You are not going to have a real relationship with another human being until you share a home with them. When you work together with someone to maintain, pay for, and stock a house with food. That is a relationship. Plus no high school guy is going to be mature enough to treat you like a girlfriend… When you meet the guy that can give you those things. That is when sexual intercourse should be considered. Here is the best way to look at it. Would you want someone with no job, no house, no paycheck, and no responsibilities to raise a child? Thats the way i see it, sex is intended for reproduction(though it is also done with contraceptives), if you dont see fit to reproduce with someone, you shouldnt have sexual intercourse with that person. This is the best advice i can give you, considering im here because im so miserable that i want to kill myself. That doesnt mean im not a very knowledgeable person. Just sad