I don’t know what the point of living is.
What aspirations I have are hopelessly out of reach.
I might be able to make progress towards them, but I’ll never get there.
I will be alone for the remainder of my life.
Mostly by my own choice.
I have nothing to offer anyone.
At best, I’m wasting time until the end.
Whenever that may be.
It always comes down to self-worth, doesn’t it?
Romance, significant others, employment, domestic life.
It’s all about self-perception, and worth.
I’m looking at another ten years to get back on my feet, at least.
That’s a long time.
I don’t know if it’s worth it.
I hate time.
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I don’t get you. Lots of people on chat like you. Doesn’t that give you self-worth. Prove that anyone out there would like you. In contrast, some of us aren’t as good 🙂
Everything you say is true. For what it’s worth, I think you are smart, funny and compassionate. I don’t know if that helps your sense of self worth. Probably not.
Duke, one_day: It’s more than just personality – it’s where I am in life. Dropped out of high school, dropped out of college, and here in the US, that means I have a massive amount of debt. Soon as I have a reportable income, my wages get garnished. I’m living with family right now due to unemployment. At 28, it’s going to be one hell of an upward climb to get close to where I’d like to be.
Circumstance does not make the man; it reveals him to himself -James Allen
Lucy4, Are you a dude?
Uh… hold on…lemme check.
I can’t tell.
I’ll be honest. This may not help, so maybe I should ask you this before: You want that I tell you the truth, as I see it, or tell you the speech of humans life?
Go ahead and tell the truth. It’s more interesting that way.
@lucy4: that’s what she said
@orange I think people fall into the trap of thinking 30s is old. When I was 20 I though by 30, you were supposed to have achieved what you wanted. 30 is the new 20. Plenty of time to do whatever you want. Its an uphill climb, but it always it for things that are worthwhile
@ one_day; In all fairness, she had really cold hands.
one_day: hope you’re right about that. lol
You will be ok. Just have to keep trying and wait for the opportunities
@orange – I am as right about that as Lucy is sure that she had cold hands
Ugh I think I drank too much yesterday. I hope to check out the rumour about water swirling anti clockwise myself. That’s the kind of event one has to see with their own eyes. I wonder who first notice it. Will check on google when I can be bothered.
@ Duke; The big racehorsing thing starts today? I hear Gatorade works well for the poor souls who still suffer hangovers.
Water in the Northern Hemisphere swirls clock-wise, it’s counter-clockwise in the southern Hemisphere. What happens right on the Equator….I don’t know.
No, the worlds richest turf race starts tomorrow. Watch it or watch nothing
Where have you been Lucy. I actually missed you these past few days.
@duke did you pass out for 3 hours and yr up again already?
Working Duke, been busy doing my thing. It’s nice to see you.
@ yep, I require very little sleep these days
You should become a spy. Liike a race horsing spy. Austin Powers meets Duke of Marmalade.
Horses live very uneventful lives. They eat, sleep and run very fast.
They’re also very well hung. What do they do with that?
I would mingle.
@lucy there is a theme running through your comments today. Something on your mind?
Does anyone else find it awkward that 2 guys are talkin about how well hung horses are?
@ one_day; I’m here to serve. Is there anything I can do to help you? Neee-heee_ Haaww Haaaw. (Horsey Sounds)
Where is this place you would like to be at
Anywhere but here. This place just gets weirder and weirder
@lucy4 oh good. For a minute there it sounded like scooby doo sounds. That was just confusing. Many thanks for the kind offer. Let me just go warm my hands up
cold hands have a deleterious effect. Shrinkage=bad.
I like causing horsey shrieks. Whaddya doing next weekend?
@lucy4- not you.
So, what’s everyone up to this weekend. Anything exciting???
@duke you wouldn’t believe it. I just had another friend get in a fight with her mum and land on my couch.
You seem to have a lot of friends. Are you a socialite or something?
I have concluded that if the three of us were to ever have an SP conference, 13:00 GMT would be the most convenient time for that to happen.
@duke I guess I have a lot of acquaintances. Calling them friends might be going a bit far. They seem to get more out of the relationship than I do.
Its 7pm eastern standard time in aus. I think we lost Lucy tho
If I emigrated do you think I could live with you for free and be a kept man. I think you are right about the role of women in today’s society and that its discriminatory to have the indignity of being financially supported by a man all the time.
@duke when did I ever say ‘its discriminatory to have the indignity of being financially supported by a man all the time.’ I never said that. I just believe everyone should have a fair choice. Those who want to be supported by their spouse, have at it.
If you want to live with me for free, I will expect you to take care of all the housework. Cooking, cleaning, laundry, shopping, mending my clothes. I tried this arrangement with an ex. It didn’t work out. I don’t know why men find it so hard to do housework. Times when I am unemployed it is the least thing I can do to contribute to the house.
That sounds like a really good arrangement. I will check out the visa requirements. Love and kindness are the best rewards. I few years ago I sent off a few applications to firms over there when I was eligible for the young persons working holiday but didn’t get a response
@duke can you cook vegan? (that was my ex’s excuse for not cooking. He said he couldn’t vegan. How hard is it to google a recipe for vegetables and pasta if yr lying around all day unemployed???) thought u were only 26 so u should still get the visa. And no one will give you a job from another country. You have to just show up here. Economy is good, you’ll find something
my new purpose in life = to get some to the point I get tired of it .. all the sublimination talk is just bullshit
Housework is all I’ve been doing for three years. O.O
I’m going to employ a wife to take care of the general housework and a back up wife to replace her if she becomes complacent. Problem solved.
“Housework is all I’ve been doing for three years. O.O”
not to be rude, but that’s your choice .. and I’m not a fan of time either
How is that a choice?
Fair trade for room and board – I can’t justify living with someone and not doing *something*. Doesn’t mean I like it (at all), but I can deal with it for now. Plus, I compulsively clean, anyhow. 😛
@duke you are going to ’employ a maid’, not ’employ a wife’… that’s semanticlly impossible since a wife is not an occupation. Although you may be able to mail order or purchase a wife.
@orange you sound like a nice houseguest. Will you please come replace my current houseguest?
These conversations sure do meander sometimes. They take a very indirect course.
Maybe life is like that. Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans. Just gotta roll with it.
Play your hand to the best of your ability, despite the cards that you’re dealt.
(That sounds like a bumper sticker).