i hope you read that, i’m highly sensitive too and i understand how it hurts to understand people. i loved this article when i read it, i hope you like it.
I can relate to your experience. I used to be very comfortable around my room mates in collage. To them I spoke whatever I felt like and never guarded my feelings and they too did the same. No doubt, we quarreled some times and at those times we got to know the deepest and darkest corners of each others psyche. Some times I discovered how bad and wicked I am myself.
Now I have a steady and fine relationship with them and we understand each other completely and we don’t wear masks in front of one another. Yet, we know what not to say to each other. Gradually I became to think that any two given humans, when they know each other intimately, will always have differences which will lead to fights. I just hate myself when I fight. So, after collage I am wearing a mask behind which I carefully choose words to say so that my relationships with whoever I meet are casual. I am afraid to REALLY know the persons I meet because it will upset me very much to find any flaws in their mentality. Right now I am keeping everyone at a distance even though I talk with them cheerfully and I know them only superficially. I trick myself into thinking that they are really as good as they seem and therefore I enjoy their company very much, or I am thinking that I enjoy their company. But when ever I am in company I am always anxious(I am very sensitive to tone of speech and body language) that I might say a wrong word and people will ditch me. But one thing I can say for sure: In collage days I really enjoyed the company of my roommates no matter how many fights we had and I even longed for their company some times. I don’t know where my beliefs right now are taking me.
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http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/201107/sense-and-sensitivity
i hope you read that, i’m highly sensitive too and i understand how it hurts to understand people. i loved this article when i read it, i hope you like it.
true that
I can relate to your experience. I used to be very comfortable around my room mates in collage. To them I spoke whatever I felt like and never guarded my feelings and they too did the same. No doubt, we quarreled some times and at those times we got to know the deepest and darkest corners of each others psyche. Some times I discovered how bad and wicked I am myself.
Now I have a steady and fine relationship with them and we understand each other completely and we don’t wear masks in front of one another. Yet, we know what not to say to each other. Gradually I became to think that any two given humans, when they know each other intimately, will always have differences which will lead to fights. I just hate myself when I fight. So, after collage I am wearing a mask behind which I carefully choose words to say so that my relationships with whoever I meet are casual. I am afraid to REALLY know the persons I meet because it will upset me very much to find any flaws in their mentality. Right now I am keeping everyone at a distance even though I talk with them cheerfully and I know them only superficially. I trick myself into thinking that they are really as good as they seem and therefore I enjoy their company very much, or I am thinking that I enjoy their company. But when ever I am in company I am always anxious(I am very sensitive to tone of speech and body language) that I might say a wrong word and people will ditch me. But one thing I can say for sure: In collage days I really enjoyed the company of my roommates no matter how many fights we had and I even longed for their company some times. I don’t know where my beliefs right now are taking me.