Hello Suicide Project and all its users!
I am here today to confirm my plans. (My typing always seems bright and happy but think of the psychotic clown who decapitates victims with a huge grin and heaps of laughter)
So, nearer to the end of the year I am going to utilize the exit bag method. From the research i have done, I found out it is the most painless and peaceful way to go. Which is awesome. But I need more ideas(suicide creativity) to seal the deal. I’m not asking you guys for ideas. Thats against the sites rules and what-not.
Anyways here is my plan:
I am going to book out a hotel room for a night and set everything up there. I want to write personal letters to all my friends and immediate family because I think one letter to generalize the whole group would lack in closure and leave people asking a bunch of questions. But I will write them all on the night to capture the pure emotional state I will be in at the time. I also think I will be waaaay more open and honest about everyone and my reasons at that time.
I plan to wear a massive homemade diaper to help what ever poor soul has to clean up after me (because all your muscles relax and you shit yourself once you die, not a very dignified way to be found) I will send all my messages out via facebook and email because you know, Save The Planet.
Yea I think thats it.
It’s so weird man! When I am amongst people I am smiling and genuinely in a good mood but I leave to go take a piss and I am straight back at square one. My mind and its playful tricks provide endless entertainment. But now that I have fully decided to go through with this I feel so numb, like I am on LSD without hallucinations. Its euphoric in a way. It’s nice 🙂 I like it.
Also on a side note, my posts don’t contain as much sadness as everyone else’s and I think that’s because I’m not sad anymore, I’m excited! Knowing that I wont be around for 2013 has got my heart racing. I think it’s shock. I dunno. But I am keen! 🙂
Feels like christmas
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What.?
My plan is the same as yours. I will pull it off in 3 to 4 weeks. wish i could PM you and talk. Wish I could speak to you. I don’t want to do this alone. BTW- i have all the equipment in place and even gave it some trial runs…. it will work well.
I am so depressed and beyond hope.
I dont want you guys to go
what? don’t go!
Nothing is worth the pain you leave behind, it’s sick to think of. My dad took his own life, but he was dying of cancer. He was brave, he went out fighting, he was and is the bravest man I will ever know. He told me good-bye in his own way, he protected me. I beg anyone who is planning this to stop, ot is more or less a cry for help.