that there are other people like me out there. I wake up and try and get through the day as best I can, but I feel as though it’s all aiming towards nothing. My outlook on life is bleak – it sounds like generic “I’m depressed” shit.. but hey, I guess I’m another generically depressed person. Death is on my mind constantly, I feel like being alive is the most selfless thing I can possibly do, because I know I’m not alive because I want to be. I’m alive because I can’t bear the thought of hurting everyone, or someone I love having to find me. I don’t know why I care about that when I care about nothing else. I’ve tried killing myself before, I remember crying with relief and then frustration because it hadn’t worked. I’m petrified of there being an afterlife, I can’t stand the idea of watching the world for eternity. I hope death is like a dreamless sleep.
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Hey there, YES! there are allot of people like us and even though “normal” people can’t possibly understand why we would wake up in the morning and think….”FUCK!!! I woke up!!” the fact remains…..we spend more time thinking about leaving this life behind then we do actually enjoying it. Whether it be just simple and harsh depression or medical problems (both in my case) we simply live for the ones we don’t want to hurt by just up and leaving life. Check out “Zeitgeistthemovie.com” and if you watch even just the first part…….it explains ALLOT in regards to heaven and hell and it made me feel better about what happens when our energy (souls) leaves these vessels (earthly bodies)…….it will help you come to grips with leaving this life behind.
I hope it’s a dreamless sleep too…
whats with everyone death really hearing all these stories doesnt even compare please talk to me dont think of anything stupid
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