I hope I understand what you’re asking; and even if I do it’s easier said than done, but find something worth giving **** about. We all only have so much emotional energy. Some of us have so many goddam holes in our life that it feels as if that energy is pouring out every corner of our soul and we have nothing left for ourselves or for what we would like. Find something worthwhile to pour the energy we waste on hate, on fear and frustration. God knows I’m still tryin and have no idea how it’s all gonna turn out; but I’m still alive and there’s a lot of worthless **** I care considerably less about than I used to.
Well I don’t know how to tell you how to give less of a shit, but I can tell you that pretty much everything that goes on around me I don’t care about. That scares me, so in a way, I wish someone would tell me how to give more of a shit.
Doing so is a scary prossess. I’ve been down that path. I still am. And cynic is right. There was a point in my life that I couldnt feel anything at all. It was so empty. There are goods and bad. The good is that you dont have to worry or stress as much anymore. I stopped caring by changing the way I thought and acted. I kept telling myself I didn’t care, so much that it became true. I thought people didn’t care about me, so I didn’t care about them. They’re selfish, so I will be too. It killed my motivation though. I didn’t do many things any more, stopped doing my homework, and for a while i stopped going outside. Also, try not to think about things as much. Distract yourself. I draw, ignore people, and have some weird obsession with removing dead skin from my hands and feet. Distractions like these help you from overthinking about things and concerns about what other people think of you. Any menial task that requires some sort of concentration, like reading or playing games. It also helped that my dad also had a similar attitude, so try hanging around people like that. I avoid drama. But I became emotionless. Its not as good as you might think. I was sad or depressed or angry, but I was neither happy. I felt neutral all the time. I felt stuck in the same place, and no matter how hard I tried I couldnt go anywhete. And the things I cared about before and still wanted to care about I no longer cared for. Not my friends nor my family, and not even myself. Some may see a girl who’s confident and fearless, but inside im a coward. I cant deal with anything in life to care so I dont care at all.
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I hope I understand what you’re asking; and even if I do it’s easier said than done, but find something worth giving **** about. We all only have so much emotional energy. Some of us have so many goddam holes in our life that it feels as if that energy is pouring out every corner of our soul and we have nothing left for ourselves or for what we would like. Find something worthwhile to pour the energy we waste on hate, on fear and frustration. God knows I’m still tryin and have no idea how it’s all gonna turn out; but I’m still alive and there’s a lot of worthless **** I care considerably less about than I used to.
Well I don’t know how to tell you how to give less of a shit, but I can tell you that pretty much everything that goes on around me I don’t care about. That scares me, so in a way, I wish someone would tell me how to give more of a shit.
Doing so is a scary prossess. I’ve been down that path. I still am. And cynic is right. There was a point in my life that I couldnt feel anything at all. It was so empty. There are goods and bad. The good is that you dont have to worry or stress as much anymore. I stopped caring by changing the way I thought and acted. I kept telling myself I didn’t care, so much that it became true. I thought people didn’t care about me, so I didn’t care about them. They’re selfish, so I will be too. It killed my motivation though. I didn’t do many things any more, stopped doing my homework, and for a while i stopped going outside. Also, try not to think about things as much. Distract yourself. I draw, ignore people, and have some weird obsession with removing dead skin from my hands and feet. Distractions like these help you from overthinking about things and concerns about what other people think of you. Any menial task that requires some sort of concentration, like reading or playing games. It also helped that my dad also had a similar attitude, so try hanging around people like that. I avoid drama. But I became emotionless. Its not as good as you might think. I was sad or depressed or angry, but I was neither happy. I felt neutral all the time. I felt stuck in the same place, and no matter how hard I tried I couldnt go anywhete. And the things I cared about before and still wanted to care about I no longer cared for. Not my friends nor my family, and not even myself. Some may see a girl who’s confident and fearless, but inside im a coward. I cant deal with anything in life to care so I dont care at all.