my pain wont go away

I don’t know you very well, so I cannot say things that are customized to your being that would make the pain go away. I don’t know what caused the pain, or why. I don’t think I would be the best person to talk about such things, because I have not survived the problems I’ve been going through. All I have to offer are these following thoughts: Don’t do anything that will hurt you physically (you already have been through mental bouts of pain and suffering, which in my opinion are worse- that is just my opinion, nothing more) or kill you. Just walk, or sit, or stand, and be only in company with your thoughts. Think about positives and negatives (no, I do not mean to say “Just think happy little thoughts and it will all go away”- that doesn’t really solve the problem). When you go thoroughly through everything, both good and bad… just realize although the good doesn’t necessarily cancel out the bad, the good’s still there. And that’s important.