What’s going on with me?
Honestly.. I’m not like this.. I don’t show my depressing side on school, and today all I could do was just think how much I was exposing myself. I mean in school, I laugh and I don’t care about my problems but how can I do that if all I can be is sad and kind of depressed..
What if someone recognized?
I mean.. I want someone to but at the same time I don’t want anyone to recognize that.. Because they might leave me.. And leave my life forever.
Does that even make sense?
Now whenever I come home from school, all I can do is cry. And cry.. And cry.. And cry..
It hurts.
Like hell.
To know that no one is really there for you.
I just want someone to be there for me.. Is that too much to ask?
Honestly.. I don’t know how much I can last.. Its not serious.. But you have no idea how much I wish I just had the courage to commit suicide.
And just let go of all the pain.
It’ll all disappear then, won’t it?
AHHHHH!
Why is my life so screwed up?
-shatteredfragments
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I know the feeling all too well… I used to have this mask on, at school. the mask it looks like you wear as well, but at times it came of, and people started to notice. but they didn’t leave me. ofc some persons did, but that just showed who my REAL friends were. there are probably more people who care about you than you think. hang in there.
I have been EXACTLY where you are, I’m to big of a coward to comit suicide, but hurting myself i can handle.
I’m here for you if you ever need to talk.
I go home from school everyday and cry, Somedays i try and keep my mind busy so i don’t cry. Cause, it gets tiring, screaming into your pillow… But, i AM always here for you.(:
I have been EXACTLY where you are, I’m to big of a coward to comit suicide, but hurting myself i can handle.
I’m here for you if you ever need to talk.
I go home from school everyday and cry, Somedays i try and keep my mind busy so i don’t cry. Cause, it gets tiring, screaming into your pillow… But, i AM always here for you.(:
I literally feel exactly the same. lately I have been having a hard time hiding