i think im insane

i think i might be crazy, whenever i get the chance, i leave the house to smoke, i hear voices and ive heard them even before i started smoking, and i think about killing myself and others, i envision the fear in their eyes as i pull the trigger, i know im a sick freak, but i dont want to tell anyone about it, i stopped going to therapy, because my therapist okayed me, i will not go back though as the voices seem to manifest themselves strongly in her offices…. the voices tell me to kill people , ive yelled at them but they wont shut up, so im going to kill myself, that should stop the voices…