I really should kill myself

I feel like same way, but you need to stop thinking what others think, if your not happy with yourself, how do you expect others to like you? you should sit down one night and make a list of all the changes you want to make with in your life and with yourself. may seem silly but it helps to have it all writen down and to see it. just try and keep away from the negative. i know its hard to just sit there and say everything will be okay, cause it doesnt just work like that. you have to work for it. if you ever need anything , feel free to message me 🙂