why do i wake up everyday feeling worthless? why do i feel like nothing will get better? why do i feel so much pain? why do people look at me like im crazy if i tell them how i really feel?…… WHY???!!!
I just want answers, i just want to know why im like this, i know im not the only one. And i also know that people out there have way bigger problems then me. but somtimes just because i live in a country with running water and i have a roof over my head. just change the fact that i still feel horrible pain. i know their are children out there who have to fight for there lives. but i just cant help to feel like things will never get better for me. I just want to feel like getting out of bed in the morning instead of hiding away in my room all day. i dont know whats happen to me, i use to have so much life in me. seems like its all gone!
Anytime ive been close to ending my life, i always usally think about my loved ones and how they would feel. but the last time this happend i didnt, i just took the pills and drank the bottle and let it all go, but nothing happened.
Friends and Family always tell me that im not alone, and that their here for me. but really no one can be there for you unless they have felt the same or understand. i am greatful i have such a loving family. but hugs and telling me everythings going to get better N i just need to be more positive doesnt help at all.
I just feel like my life is stuck like this, that i will always feel alone and just not want to live. and i use to think that it sucked that i felt that way, i use to be such a happy go lucky girl. now i just cant seem to post on a smile and act happy. anytime i look at myself in the mirror or think about my life, i just want to break down and cry most of the time i do.
Just seems like theres no way out of this pain…… I dont know what to do anymore
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I know what you mean. Sometimes it feels to me that me and this were not meant to coexist. I feel so distant, I feel as though I don’t belong here anymore. I’m willing to talk to you if it’ll help. 🙂
i feel the same way, like i dont belong. like im worthless. you’re not alone. you are not worthless though, and you do belong. we each just have a hard time seeing that about ourselves sometimes. it hurts, often every day.