I’m back…sorta

Hey, I know it’s been a couple of months since I’ve posted, and I’m really sorry if anyone worried, but the truth is, I’ve been doing really well. I’ve stopped taking medication, and have actually been out and social and been doing assignments and stuff so much that I haven’t had time to write anything. I mean sure I had little things like friend/boyfriend/family fights and shit, but I’ve been so social that I’ve had friends come and help me through it. My post traumatic stress and depression symptoms are reducing by the day, and although I know I can relapse at any time, it doesn’t really concern me too much, because I’ve got new and old real friends, along with my boyfriend and family to help me through it. Things are doing well at home too. My brother celebrated his 21st last Friday, so that was heaps of fun. My sister and I have been closer recently and my parents have been around a lot more. School is slowly improving, but seeing as I have been sick so much this year and as a result ended up on mostly D’s and E’s, I’ve decided to repeat year 11. I’m kind of nervous, but one of my best mates is repeating by choice as well and I have quite a few friends in the year below, so I should be okay. But the main point is that I’m taking back control of my life. It’s not easy, but it’s getting there. Oh and my health is going really well now. Very few people here know this, but before, during and a little after the time I was posting here, I was suffering with anorexia, but I’m recovering from that. I’m at the stage now where I’m eating three full meals in front of people (before I’d eat one, and even then I couldn’t do it in front of people), and sometimes even desserts and snacks. I even ate half a lint chocolate bar (the ones with 8 big bits) in front of my siblings yesterday. This probably sounds weird to people who haven’t had an eating disorder before, but it’s such a big achievement for me. And to top it off, I had two total strangers compliment me on how I looked in a bikini the other day (first time I ever wore one). So yeah, everything is great for me, lets just hope it stays that way 🙂

Hoping you are all well

CPC

Oh, and PS: I will probably be on a bit from time to time now that I have no assignments and stuff, but hopefully that’s to help people rather than put my posts out lol