The only thing about being abandoned is that there’s nothing to cry about. Nobody yells at you, nobody calls to tell you that they no longer care. There is no email carrying the time-stamp of the end of your friendship. There is nothing to cry about because being abandoned is precisely when nothing happens.
When someone walks out on you, it’s easy to wish that they slammed the door behind them. You almost want something to happen – anything, good or bad – just so your pain makes sense. When people break up or fight, everyone knows. The hugs and kind words add up. Having someone sneak out of your life hurts a million times more, because you feel emptier, because nobody else notices but you.
Nobody else will care either. You cannot show them what emptiness feels like: the feeling that someone should fill the void in your heart. People will comfort you when you cry, they will hold you while you bleed. But they will not hold or comfort your abandoned soul, because you have nothing to cry about.
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thirteen – that was beautifully written! If you want anyone to talk to, I’m here. Just let me know.
You are preaching to the choir. Everyone from my stepfather’s family to my father’s girlfriend’s family to all boyfriends have abandoned me. I, on the other hand do have tears left. Cannot stop crying for the past 4 days. Probably the holidays. Makes everyone abandoned suicidal.
Nicely written just like em is there for you I will be here for you too, we all feel emptiness at one point I know what you are going through this has happened to me, you need a reason to fight, it gives you purpose but we all have purpose it is just hard to find sometimes :(, I wish you best in health and in happiness, I may not know you but I have faith in you.