I feel worthless..
I hate what i am.
I feel like a fat, hideous thing.
I don’t deserve to live.
I don’t deserve the air i breathe.
I don’t know why people see me as this happy person. I am No Where near that. I wish i could be as happy as i pretend to be..
Why is it that when i think i’m getting better i always end up taking five steps back..
i wish i could love who i am..
i see all these pretty girls and just wosh i was one of them.
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first of all, dont let anybody ever let you believe youre not pretty. why is it you feel worthless, why do you say all these things? did someone make you feel this way? i genuinely care. i have so many insecurities, some of them i may exaggerate, but my problem generally is that i let other people put me down because im little, so they think that means im weak. and sometimes i believed it. we cant let others make us feel this way. i dont know if this helps at all. im so sorry if it doesn’t. id really like to help.
I can totally relate :/ I don’t know you, but you sound very, very insecure about yourself, what caused it? You are not worthless, no one should put you down and if anyone does, don’t trust them. Those kind of people are never, ever right.
I think we might have a lot in common, we should talk 🙂
My email is immarebal@hotmail.com
Gumpy
Being what the media defines as “pretty” (i.e. anorexic air-brushed plastic surgery illusion) doesn’t solve problems or make you happy. Read a book by Gloria Steinem called “Marilyn” (it’s about Marilyn Monroe). And you mentioned possibly being overweight? Get a book by Doreen Virtue called “Constant Craving: What Your Food Cravings Mean and How to Overcome Them.” (Sorry for sending you to the library…lot of good books out there.) My point is that you have to find happiness within yourself, not without. Whenever I see a girl who I think is prettier than me, I say these words to myself: “We all have our own story.” Meaning, we are all unique individuals and it’s only blood-sucking mass media and a society stuck in hive mentality that cause us to believe the women on magazine covers are beautiful and the rest of us are not. Don’t buy into that, brenn. Don’t.
I actually do read, and i like it. but for some reason, none of that sticks, none of it changes the way i think. i have tried a countless number of times to change my perspective on myself, or just simply my image. but it never works… i fail.
thank you so so much, and yah i really am insecure.. i guess i just started to believe all the negative things people would tell me. we should talk. i will email you.
it means alot to me knowing that you care, i believe everything people say about me too. i was severly bullied and i just let them talk me down, i no longer attend that school, but that doesnt change the way i feel about myself. if anything it makes me feel even more pathetic for just running away from the problem.
& dont ever think that of yourself, because you were a HUGE help<3