I just need to get some things out.
I just want someone. Not an online chat but an actual person to care for. I know that people like to have their freedom and that getting tied down is a the worst thing that can happen, but its just a load of male testosterone bullshit. I just want someone I can care for. Someone I can tell anything, ask about their day and hold them forever.
If I wasn’t me this wouldn’t be a problem. All of my friends are in relationships even the weird ones. Well im weird too, but I mean the really weird ones. Sometimes I just want to escape, I just want to find an escape where I can hide myself away.
My doctor tells me to take note of how I am feeling, well right now im feeling pretty fucking miserable and alone. Saturday night and im staying in alone again. Just me and my apartment, the cold and the darkness.
Sorry if you read this far, its just me having my usual Saturday pity party.
I hope everyone here finds the thing that will bring them peace.
ILU
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Sometimes I do the same when it comes to Saturday. I shut and lock myself in my messy room. It feels like the world ignores me and I’m like what the fuck is my fault?
RuinsOfTheVoid,
“Even the weird ones. Well im weird too, but I mean the really weird ones.” woooo hoooo! Now that really really sad! If you don’t mind me asking what is it that makes you so……………….. Unlovable?
it’s wonderful to have someone to care for… but it hurts that much more not having them anymore.
tis better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.<— bullshit.
(pardon my language)
i am sorry to add to your pity party.
I’m looking for the same thing. I know how it feels.. It’s not like we’re asking for a million dollars. Try to keep your head up though.. I know I’m not the only one who has seen what a great person you are! As far as the Saturday night thing goes… I’m in the same boat. Sorry to hear that you’re down, but you should smile because I know you will find what you are looking for. 🙂
Stay positive, don’t let the bad times keep you down!
Thanks guys. Its nice to know that someone is listening to you. So thanks.
@rocketman, its a confidence thing, i see a girl and think she would never be interested in me. I am my own worst enemy. Also I have social anxiety, so its difficult for me to attend things like parties and stuff.
@Dravenxx. Thanks for your kind words yet again. I havent played a single thing today, I workedout and meditated insted. I defo need a new hobby. I would love to know more of your story, do you have any posts?
I’m always here to listen. I haven’t played a game in a week and a half (not including little games on my phone). I worked out today, too! It felt amazing. I actually just created this account a couple weeks ago, and I haven’t posted anything yet. But, if you’d like to talk more then I will gladly give you my email!