I need some help. I made my exit bag. I went to the store to buy the helium, and realized my debit card has been maxed out (not sure how). I don’t know where to go from here. I need to be ready by tomorrow night at the lightest. That is my checkout time, and I will not be around on Monday morning. I would like to go as painlessly and peacefully as possible, but I will do whatever it takes. It wont matter in the long run, anyway.
Is there ANY way I can use propane to do this? I know that propane does put of CO2, which is the goal, correct? Is there any way possible to make it work for an exit bag? I have an entire propane grill, with a brand new propane tank. All hooked up, so I have tubes/valves, etc. I just don’t know very much about gasses. Never had a dad, etc. Please, I need some help!
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SilverDuck, you’re not a bother. 🙂
Can’t really help you on those gasses. And I don’t think any normal dad would know that much about them either, so it’s alright.
No need to rush things though. Easy does it.
Sorry, if I’m no help on those gasses. I just thought I’d talk to you a bit. I like talking.
Same as above, know nothing bout gasses and I don’t think (hope!) no one here would advise u on the best way to go.
Is there anything in your life making you so suicidal at this present moment? Thinking and praying for you to get through this x
It’s okay. I appreciate the thought.
catfreak, no. Not any single person/event is making me this way. I have 2 more threads open that you’re welcome to read for some insight on my motives. It’s a mouthful, to say the least. But this isn’t impulsive by any means. It is actually something that I have been literally obsessing over for almost 2 weeks now. Every waking moment is spent thinking about my death, and the only fear I have is that I have no fear. I am actually very excited to get this done. I understand how bat shit crazy that sounds, and I don’t think it is possible to understand without having truly experienced it. I do believe that I have the right to die, and that my reasons are good enough. For me. Maybe not for others. Like I say, something meaningless and trivial to you might be devastating, and painful to another. As far as I am concerned, I have more than enough reasons for making this happen, and I believe I have the right to end my suffering. I gave it the good fight, though. 23 years spent fighting for my life, quite literally. It’s over now, though. Mom died when I was 17, and Uncle Bobby took his life last year. He is the uncle I am named after, my mother’s brother. I worshiped the ground that man walked on. I respect the decision he made, and it is now my turn to make a decision. I do not believe suicide is okay, mind you. I think people should ALWAYS look for alternatives, and NEVER make such a decision on impulse alone. Reasons are personal, and other people might not understand it, but it is crucial to spent some time seriously thinking, and reflecting BEFORE making a decision. It is a permanent solution for a temporary problem, in most cases. In mine, however, it is a permanent solution for a permanent problem. I believe I have suffered enough. I believe I deserve some peace, and freedom. I made enough shitty mistakes in my life, and I have more than paid for them. Now I can finally relax, and be free.
I’m sad that you feel that way, SilverDuck. 🙁
If I lived where you are, I’d hug you.
SilverDuck propane! exit bag! no way!
you will make yourself sick very sick that’s it. bad idea, sorry but it is what it is.
I need to figure something out. Tonight is the night, regardless. I don’t have access to ******** or helium, and propane burns CO2. I’ll figure something out.
SilverDuck, If you are still here, tell me about your handle? I wish I would have seen your post earlier.
You’re 23, I have been there, I am a lot older yet I have lived what you are going through. Somehow I was too chicken to end it, and I still think about doing it, even after all these years. There is always some piece of shit that makes me think checking out is the answer. Even today. That is why I found this post, I searched for unbiased suicide methods and here I am.
I hope you are here. I know what it feels like to feel worthless. I have done great things and then not so much. I have pressure to earn, and now I don’t have the capacity to earn what I need to. Money. What a bad deal.
I hope you are here. I just saw RGIII on TV, that’s the only significance of my handle.