All of my problems stem from the family. My mother is more fucked up then I am and she won’t accept it. My step father wants me to act exactly like he did as a kid. I recently tried to commit suicide and failed. I am trying to move passed it but my parents aren’t. I feel as though I’m still at the stress center and am getting really stressed out. I almost cut today but I stopped myself in time. I need help.
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The thing about parents is… they have been in this world much longer than you. And they have been the way they are long before you were even a glimmer in your father’s eye. So the likelyhood that anything you say/do will ever make them change is almost nil. So stop trying. Just focus on you, don’t worry about them so much. You can be there to support your mother, but you can’t MAKE her do anything. How is she ‘fucked up?’
I agree families can be tough and sometimes we have to accept we can’t change people. That’s not to say you should feel unimportant. Your parents probably care about you and don’t know how to be around you for the best. How do you mean your trying to move past the suicide attempt but they aren’t? Like they won’t let you forget it is it? X
The rest of my family agrees with me on this. She takes a lot of pills a day, and she is a attention seeker. All she does is sleep all day or get on facebook. At home I’m used to hiding my feelings from my family. I hate it so much. On friday my father said “I’m tired of all this touchy feely shit.” All i was doing was expressing how I felt and thats how he responded. We got into a fight later and was sent to my grandmother’s. She is on my side because she sees what my parents really are.
Yes to what catfreak said.
that’s tough… it’s true, you really can’t choose your family. I know what it’s like to be the sensitive one in a family of pig-headedness… it’s tough, because they probably will never understand. That’s the way they are, they are not sensitive and they don’t see things the way you do. Be proud of who you are, though… it’s hard to be different, but it also makes you special. People like us see things that other people don’t. That is something you should be proud of. Don’t bother trying to change your parents, they’re just a different kind of person and there’s nothing wrong with it, I just don’t think they’ll understand and you will drive yourself mad trying to make them get it. Try not to see things in terms of ‘taking sides’… everyone is different, theres no right or wrong way to be, but at the end of the day you are a family and you are on the same side, so try to keep the big picture stuff in mind.
I’m glad you have your grandmother to go to, it helps to have someone who understands where you’re coming from.
Sounds like your mum is going through a tough time. To be honest, it sounds like she’s severely deppressed. Maybe you are both going through the same thing, only you have different ways of showing it. Have you ever talked to her about it?