Run

My heart stopped. It felt as if i just walked over the edge of a cliff and fell straight into the ocean, where i would never stop drowning, falling further and further into the deep. Terrified of what Love could do i stopped. So there i sat everyday looking out the window at nothing. Nothing was my life, nothing but a broken heart and the numbness of the world that is. The numb helped me through everything i can remember. It helped me forget and forgive everyone but myself. Myself was a person not even i was familiar with. I couldn’t figure it out and being with him only made me more confused. I looked into his eyes and could find nothing and no one. Our souls were lost and it sure did feel like never to be found. I heard that voice in my head asking me the same question over and over again. “Why?” Why was i doing it to myself, why was i making all these mistakes. Why now? I wasn’t doing anything but fucking up the very foundation of my life i tried and tried to run as fast as i could but running never helps. because no matter where you run you always end up running into yourself.