a new age

i have changed significantly this year, some of it not so good.

I have definately started coming out of my shell this year, only a few months after my 18th i started getting into alcohol and weed, (never thought i would) as i found out its incredible effects on my anxious irrational mind.  I honestly like how i have changed it means that i am not the same old me. In many ways i feel i  am moving forward besides the risky sex (which i have simmered , it was ust a phase). I have made some incredible feats which i never thought i would be doing a year ago. I have met with total strangers (guys).  and went to their and out to a movie. Yes i know not so safe but never the less i have to say i am impressed with my self. FOr a coward like me, this was very brave if not impulsive and manic. I have now got my full license (finally) and a parttime job which i am very proud about. Still very anxious at work though with interacting with people. I just needed to post htis to reflect. I have truly came such along way these past couple years. I hope to continue moving forward in a healthier way.