I’m sorry guys….
I’m down. I called a friend for help. He “didn’t have time”, so I asked him to call my ex to call me ( I deleted his number so I couldn’t stalk him), and he did. He said to my ex `it wasn’t necessary’ , so…
he eventually called me … drunk… blaming me I had sex with my ex and shit, but I needed him to be here…
He stopped the conversation by saying: “well, I’m going now… bye. ”
Yeah, I had sex with him, but you don’t know why… I’m empty… I want to feel…
I need you…
BE HERE, please… you gave me almost 5 months… you loved me…. please…. don’t give up on me.
I SUCK. hard. my emotions swing by the minute… I suck I suck. I need to die.
I suck. I cheated. I suck. I’m empty.
FUCK.
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Soulless-dawnkeeper,
what’s done is done,no matter whatever the out come is, it is what it is, your not the first or the last,i’m sure you had your reasons too. beating yourself up anymore is not going to change things. we all make mistakes.
I need strong arms around me that hold me, to prevent me from falling to the floor. I need to hear I’m not such shit I think, but they all prove I am what I think I am.
I’m not strong. yeah, I can handle much physical shit, but mentally…
I cheated… I cheated… several times.
I’m empty.
I SUCK