I’m tired

I went to school today extremely tired because I stayed up trying to get a project done and this after staying up really late and sleeping until noon. I haven’t started my homework yet because I can’t keep focused enough to do it  so I’ve decided to write and get some things off my chest.

I’ve been feeling suicidal lately and I guess I could say the worst I’ve ever felt and I haven’t really been doing much about it but these days because things are getting bad I secretly long to talk to someone but I guess I’m afraid to because I   don’t really talk to people about my problems  especially when I feel down I tend to isolate. My mom has been extra hard on me since she read my notes, I don’t think she believes I’m depressed so she’s been complaining about how I spend my weekends in bed and am slow with work, how I need to do this and that.