These are my little brothers words. Â And he really meant it.
He used to look up to me so much when he was younger, I was always there for him whenever he needed me. But after finding out I am gay and atheist, he completely ignores + hates me.
It was his birthday today, and I just wished him a happy birthday and wanted to give him a brotherly hug and he said “Fuck off fag, no one likes you. Why don’t you just kill yourself please” and I was just like “…….”
He doesn’t know how depressed I am, he doesn’t know that for the past year I have been thinking about killing myself everyday of every second of everyday, he doesn’t know anything about the billions of stuff that are wrong in my life…
Hearing him say that he wants me dead and actually meaning it, just makes me feel even more worthless and more shitty now. I want to kill myself just right now, but don’t want him to feel bad that maybe his words made me do it… especially since its his birthday right now…
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He doesn’t hate you, he hates himself. Maybe you can help him.
My brother said the same thing to me 🙁
Look.. right now your brother is growing up. If you do it, he will remeber the things he said to you and feel like shit. The depression you have will spread onto him bc he will feel that deep guilt. Just learn to let it go when he says mean stuff. Get professional help for your depression. Sadness is sadness but when it lasts longer than 2 weeks and has all these struggles included such as suicidal thoughts, it is a mental issue. It just can’t go away over night. People must understand that depression is a disorder and can be treated with medication/therapy/counseling.. its human to go through this. But put effort into overcoming this.
Maybe this will sound bad, but your brother sounds like a nasty piece of shit. I’ve gone way past the point of being nice for the sake of it. If my brother said that to me, I hope I’d have the presence of mind to tell him to go fuck himself and to explain how little a clue he has about anything in this world beyond his pornography collection. But then I’m not close to my family, so I would think like this (I also probably wouldn’t be able to say it in th moment, which is even more sad).
you need to man up and kick his ass bruh you dont actually have to hit him or anything but kick his ass in your own head dont let this fucker do this to you make him your betch and make him cry do whatever it takes to put yourself on top stop trying to kill him with kindness its not working your gonna have to start getting nasty to him is all i gotta say