I don’t have a lot of money, in fact if I ever checked my bank balance I’d probably see I have close to nothing. But lately I really don’t care because ill probably be dead soon enough. I haven’t cashed my last 4 paychecks, they’ve been sitting in my coat pocket for almost 2 months. Â I remember reading about Wallace Carothers, inventor of nylon, who killed himself with cyanide dissolved in lemon juice… They found a drawer full of uncashed paychecks in his home. Makes sense… why bother.
i figure I’ll leave all my money (what little I have) to this girl I know. She takes care of animals and could use some help with vet bills. Aside from that I can’t see any value in money anymore. It’s funny, I was once obsessed with making it, saving it, investing it. Dreaming of all the great things I would do with it. A lot like life itself, it had so much potential. But now I see it’s all meaningless.
What do we do with money? We pay bills, buy food, treat ourselves and try to be happy once in a while. Or sometimes we try to treat others and make them happy. We’re just prolonging the inevitable. There will always be bills to pay, food will keep getting more expensive and it’ll keep getting harder to make ourselves happy. Money is life: an exercise in futility.
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He married Helen Sweetman on February 21, 1936. Carothers had been troubled by periods of mental depression since his youth. Despite his success with nylon, he felt that he had not accomplished much and had run out of ideas. His unhappiness was compounded by the death of his sister, Isobel, and on the evening of April 28, 1937 he checked into a Philadelphia hotel room and committed suicide by drinking a cocktail of lemon juice laced with potassium cyanide.[3] His daughter, Jane, was born seven months later on November 27, 1937. Sad. Story. potassium cyanide where can you bye it. I’m going to google it.
hey please don’t commit suicide because you feel that life/money is futile. your realization is very spiritual and beautiful.
i too feel that life is futile and that i don’t have any friends and cannot easily get a girlfriend.
i am bipolar but it is all so spiritual to me.
my only advice would be to eat something you like and try to feel some pleasure in life.
Wikipedia says he used to keep a cyanide pill on his watch chain… apparently he had been planning it for a while. I don’t know where to buy it but I’m looking. A few years ago another scientist at the same lab killed himself with cyanide… He took notes as it was happening. Unfortunately his handwriting became illegible at the end, but for the most part it seemed painless & peaceful
cyanidesofmarch,
i do not want you to kill yourself but cash your checks and any money your going to give someone make sure they can get it pretty easy, yes money dosen’t make you happy but it helps. i know nothing about cyanide except what i seen in the movies and people look like bugs getting sprayed with raid to me! that’s not for me!
LOL, send a little to me then cause I don’t even afford killing myself.