– I am aware I’m probably just giving the people what they want by doing this, but oh we’ll.
I mention a few people in my post here but I talked to a lot more people and I have a lot more people that I hold admiration for. I also wrote this a while ago and it’s incomplete, but I think it serves as a basic goodbye. Anyone I email then I will email. I have to go away from this website now forever or for a long time, and if I return it’ll probably be under a similar username. There are problems and stress I am getting right now that are really against what I want and I really do not wish any ill on anyone involved, but they think I am responsible for making someone do the deed when I cared for them a lot. I honestly say I did no such thing and I had little control over that person anyway. They had already made up their mind. And so, on that note, goodbye. If anyone comments, it’s unlikely you’ll get a reply from me so I’m sorry. I wanted someone to be as happy as they could’ve been and that’s somehow ruined our relationship. I am going away but I am very hesitant. I want to stay. I am not going to kill myself yet, I can rise above this, but I just need to have some time without all the drama I have just received. I think I wrote the comments below in a way which makes it sound like I’m going to die. That is not so. And as I said, I like a lot more people than the ones I list here. I have a lot more to say but no time to say it. A lot must be done to get myself out of this situation right now. If you listened to my problems, thank you. You are all wonderful people, I hope you all find the happiness you seek, but me saying that to someone led me into the mess I’m in now. I know I’ve only referred to 5 people below. It’s appalling, but I can’t do more now. <3
@Rocketman: @Amakua2309:
I hope you get what want out your relationship together, it's certainly a well established one, and you seem to like each other very much. I hope you both find the happiness you desire in life, and I'm thankful I had some random conversation to be a part of, it took my mind off things for a while – no easy task.
@Scar504: I enjoyed our debates back in the day, they were long and numerous, but yet somewhat insightful, I miss those. You seemed to talk to me less when you found out my age, but then again, you were on SP less often from after that anyway. Maybe you migrated to the chat, I wouldn't know. Anyway, you helped and I'm thankful of that. 🙂 You quite clearly were a help to others regularly and it should be commended!
@LuckyBombAbCan: you were the first person to comment on my posts and you did a lot of helpful things for others.
@Abselom: Whilst I was looking through my posts and comments I realised we seemed to have a lot of similar feelings. In that way, maybe I know your pain well enough to know how disgusting it is. I'm sorry for you. Good luck anyway, and I hope you have a better outcome from it than I probably will.
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Oh! I feel sad that a misunderstanding had to happen like this. You were only trying to help someone. Some people just don’t want the help so why should you get the blame?
Vacated,
It’s quite sad that it had to come to this, with what you’ve endured these past few days. Take all the time you need to heal, recover and move onward.
Not every story has a happy ending as we all understand, but the story of that one special person whom you knew very briefly but fell in love with forever, will continue through you. She will always be in your heart.
Take good care of yourself.