Im 20 and I live in one of the best cities in the US, nyc. I should been out enjoying life having fun but I cant… This darkness that hides within me wont allow me it has a hold on me and its geting stronger. I fear myself smh. Im surrounded by people but noone understands me noone loves me or care for me.. But why should they smh im crazy weird and miserable, well thats what they say. But I dont wanna be that I dont wanna be broken lonely and suicidal. I wanna be happy and free. I wanna have friends and live life. I wanna look in them mirror and not fear myself. I stoped cutting for a week but the urges are back. And the darkness is geting stronger.
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Loveless1821,
not everyone is suppost to love you only special people! and they are hard to find! you know why? BECAUSE THERE SPECIAL!!! lol your not alone everyone feels like that unless your honey boo boo! in which case when you grow up then you want to kill yourself! it works opposite for you things will get better 🙂
Loveless1821,
I think a lot of people feel (almost) the same as you (I’m NOT saying that you have it easy or something, because there are more people with that feeling, because you have it definitelly NOT easy) you just have to find them and talk with them, so maybe you won’t feel lonely and like noone loves or care for me. I know there are people that love you! I know that because you are special 🙂
Just love yourself and you’ll find people who love you! <3