kill me

I just want to scream. I hate myself. I’m clumsy, so I get hurt often, I’m not social, so I have no friends, I’m the shadow of someone I used to know, and honestly who could care about that. I feel so pathetic. You know someday it he’s so bad when I wake up I start rapidly shaking and tears are streaming out of my eyes for no reason until I almost puke even though I can’t feel the pain. I already plan on killing myself just waiting for when and how.