I can’t say that I can fully understand how you feel, but my best friend killed herself four months ago. She was like a sister to me and we were attached at the hip. I took care of her as best as I could, and I know the amount of pain that it is to lose someone so close to you. I felt like I died when she did.
I’m truly sorry for your son.
Are there any daily routine that you can still hang on to, or follow? I can’t imagine how much pain that you are going through… as no loss is exactly the same.
it has taken me a long while to recover (not done yet), but ultimately what keeps me going is to follow a set of routines.. be it fixing things in the house…working on some random projects… anything that can keep me busy and not enough time to think about loss. My experience tells me that time may not heal, as the pain will always be there..but the amount of attention I give to it depends on how much I keep my thoughts busy with other tasks at hand.
From time to time…certain smell..sound…images..moments of tiny and lucid thoughts…would instantly drag me to the painful moments.. it happens..and I don’t expect it to ever go away fully.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your son. It must have been awful finding your poor son hanging there. RIP. He’s an angel now, and he will protect you. I’m sure he is with you in spirit. Please don’t give up.
It’s okay. He…. I’m sure he had his reasons, but I know that he wouldn’t want you to do that. He loved you, and would never want to hurt you. Just keep holding on. Keep trying. Please.
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I can’t say that I can fully understand how you feel, but my best friend killed herself four months ago. She was like a sister to me and we were attached at the hip. I took care of her as best as I could, and I know the amount of pain that it is to lose someone so close to you. I felt like I died when she did.
I’m truly sorry for your son.
Are there any daily routine that you can still hang on to, or follow? I can’t imagine how much pain that you are going through… as no loss is exactly the same.
it has taken me a long while to recover (not done yet), but ultimately what keeps me going is to follow a set of routines.. be it fixing things in the house…working on some random projects… anything that can keep me busy and not enough time to think about loss. My experience tells me that time may not heal, as the pain will always be there..but the amount of attention I give to it depends on how much I keep my thoughts busy with other tasks at hand.
From time to time…certain smell..sound…images..moments of tiny and lucid thoughts…would instantly drag me to the painful moments.. it happens..and I don’t expect it to ever go away fully.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your son. It must have been awful finding your poor son hanging there. RIP. He’s an angel now, and he will protect you. I’m sure he is with you in spirit. Please don’t give up.
It’s okay. He…. I’m sure he had his reasons, but I know that he wouldn’t want you to do that. He loved you, and would never want to hurt you. Just keep holding on. Keep trying. Please.