feel drained, feel tired. i met with the therapist again yesterday, after three years of it not working i thought i was done but after family therapy finished i decided to have one more session to see if i was really done with therapy, turns out im not. i told her i only want like 3 sessions per subject i want to talk about, i dont want it to drag on again till i feel even more stuck.
one of the things i bought up was about unconditionla love, that i havent ever had that from family or parents the way most other people seemed to be privelleged to get. and that what i want, what i crave, is to have someone who will love me no matter what, unconditionally, that even if i hurt them, scream at them, do stupid things, therll still hold me and say yeah they are hurt but they love me, always will, no matter what. and thats alot to ask isnt it? but when iv never been given that from family, from parents, thats what i want. someone who i can run to.
people dont realise how safe it is to feel safe. i want to feel safe
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We want the same thing. The most important thing in life. I understan you