I am in my 30`s, just finishing a 2 year sentence, currently on full parole. Just before Christmas my wife handed me separation papers and asked me to leave. I had a feeling she would leave and I don`t blame her, she needs more than I can give. I feel that I have made amends for the wrongs I have done and have put to rest that rock bottom period of my life. Only to find my self slipping into a different rock bottom.
I have a decent job, bought a home and a car… none of it means anything. I go home and stare, my brain bouncing from do it..dont do it… string yourself up to fuck it cut your own throat. I became tired of the quiet so a radio plays 24/7 and now the constant noise in my head drowns out the music.
I take meds but they don’t do anything and I am so tired of medications.
Not sure what will kill me first, my own hands or the loneliness.
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You have a chance for a fresh start. Be the man you know you can be. As a woman, I would never hold a past mistake against a loving man who was willing to grow beyond it. It’s obviously your decision, but what I see is that you have a chance for the real deal. Unlike me who keeps picking men who are users.