This Friday will most likely be my last day.
I don’t deserve to be here at all.
I’ve been bad since I was born and have spent my life trying to make up for all the bad things I have done, the people I have hurt.
I cannot do anything right.
I’ve had little thoughts here and there when I was younger, but now I am sure.
I would not wish this on anyone else. Not at all.
Is it possible to be this bad and yet, love?
I love you, my family, my soulmate, my friends.
But I am bad for this world.
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Sweetie No. I don’t care how bad you think you are, you dont deserve to die. You weren’t put on this earth to you give up, you were put this earth because God thought you were stdong enough to thrive, and survive. If you just hold on, and fight like the warrior you can be, that you were meant to be, you will get through this. You just need to hold on and try to keep on fighting.
It is possible to be bad and yet love…yes it is, but being all loving and bad at the same time – that is not a combination that works.
You say you’re bad – what makes you so bad? It would be useful to know how old you are? I am not a therapist – perhaps a concerned third party…
Let this Friday be the day you decide to make some changes instead of ending it all. It is your choice…and only yours
I also wanted to add that before you really speak to someone you can’t be the judge of how bad you really are. It may very well be that the truth is hidden deep beneath the surface…
Thank you all for your responses. But I can’t go back. I’m holding out until I’ve finished up most of my responsibilities and duties.
I spoke to my counsellor and certain things have been put in place to help me and to prevent me… But I am still going ahead with it.
I have let everyone down, but it is this one final time.
I am sorry.