This is the end

Look I moved halfway across the country to be with a girl. We lived together for 6 years. Been together for 7. I helped her through nursing school. I helped her parents. I sacrificed my life and let her goals and dreams become mine because I love her. She left on January 3rd and hasn’t been back since. There’s a loaded handgun sitting on my coffee table. If I can survive 6 weeks and counting without her I’m pretty sure you can survive too. You need to find a reason to live outside the other person. Get out of your house. Go do something you like to do. Find a new hobby. Give it time. If he came back anyway do you really want to be with someone if they’re with you because they don’t want to hurt yourself. My girl told me that she would come back because she knew I was thinking about hurting myself. I told her that I would rather die than to have a pity party. Fix yourself. Then try to fix your relationship.