i really dont understand why im still here………. is there really any point of me being…. whats the word.. Alive???? I have done some pretty stupid stuff like well heres my story………….. so it started in 6th grade (last year yes im in 7h grade) when i made out with a girl… i was curious it was just me the girl i made out with and my sister and her sister we were in the bathroom we started making out and a teacher walked in and saw what happened so she called our parents and our parents starting telling their friends and some of them had kids and we went to school with and eventually the whole school knew so i got called a lesbian a whore a slut etc. you get the point there was all sorts of stuff on the wall about me too so i went home and i decided to drink Bleach i cut my self tryed hanging and starving myself nothing worked so i guess my question is……. WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL HERE???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????? later on in the begenning of 7th grade i had a bf named skiler i really liked him and ppl started saying i was cheating on him so we broke up a couple of months passed by and i worked up the nerve to talk to him again so we started talking one day i asked him if he would give me a second chance and there was mean 8th graders behind us he said no im over you you slutty lesbian the 8th graders heard him and started laughing :'( later that day i was walking home and a bunch of girls were following me so i started walking faster and so did they later on they caught up with me and hit me several times and kicked me in the face and stomach nothing was done about it everyone said it would get better bull shit i still dont understand why im still here!!!               WHY????????????    it never did and never will..fyi i am bisexual … so i guess thanks for reading my story and please no mean or rude comments !!!!!!
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High school is really just a tough place for many people, ImDone16. Many people get bullied and many people base their entire self worth off of what happens during those years. The truth is very few people know who they are in jr high/high school, and because they are so confused they take it out on other teens.
Everyone just wants to be liked, accepted, and respected. Everyone wants to feel special, and making you feel worse is how they make themselves feel better. The reality is people pick on others because they themselves are hurting.
Everyone’s brains are still developing at your age, and many people may be different later in life. It’s not an excuse for them to bully you, I just want you to understand many people get called terrible things and feel alone at your age.
For most people, life will get better. Obviously not everyone does (which is why we have adults on this site as well), but most people find their way eventually. Try not to internalize all the things they say about you because reality is once you leave high school you’ll never see those people again. They only have as much power over your life as you give them.
Bullying is hard, really hard, and the things people have done to you are very sad. You’re not a whore, and many of those kids wouldn’t even recognize one if it slapped them in the face. Having a differing sexual orientation is ok – it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I know the thing that you were caught doing was embarrassing, but it doesn’t have to define the rest of your life.
If bullying persists, get your parents or a teacher involved.
School sucks in general, wait till after you’re done with all that to find out how you really feel about life. For me, I’d rather be in school right now just because it would give me something to do, but the fact that I absolutely despise how it works, makes me not want to ever go back.
Guys like bisexual girls. Just sayin.
not at my school /: