My friend is going to show me how to cut deeper and get more blood. And since I don’t want to witness him hurting himself, I asked him to cut me in order to show me. He said yes. I find that exciting and can’t wait to do it, hahaha.
i suppose it terrifies me. but i don’t care. he’s the first person that has offered to LET me cut and HELP me rather than try to force me to conform and be trapped in living Hell. i’m excited to cut deeper and even more so for him to cut me because if he really does then i can feel happy.
The reason people cut themselves is to cause themselves pain that they are feeling from other things..? Having someone else do it for you will make you feel worse..
actually it will make me feel better i think. my mind is so screwed up, but he understands it and he wants to help me… his cutting me will make my blood a haven and his blade the key unlocking that new realm for me.
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Does it scare you at all that you think this way?
i suppose it terrifies me. but i don’t care. he’s the first person that has offered to LET me cut and HELP me rather than try to force me to conform and be trapped in living Hell. i’m excited to cut deeper and even more so for him to cut me because if he really does then i can feel happy.
The reason people cut themselves is to cause themselves pain that they are feeling from other things..? Having someone else do it for you will make you feel worse..
actually it will make me feel better i think. my mind is so screwed up, but he understands it and he wants to help me… his cutting me will make my blood a haven and his blade the key unlocking that new realm for me.