I often say to my friend “I hate people.” and she normally says back, “but youre a person! You dont hate yourself.” what she doesnt know is, I do. I hate myself. I cant stand myself, I hate who I am. I hate myself because Im fat, Im ugly, Im stupid, Im not good enough, I have acne, I cant sleep, I cant stop eating, Im pathetic, Im lazy, Im a liar, Im a *****, Im lonely, I have one friend on earth, Im not worth the time and effort that went into making me, I can go on and on forever.
You might try and tell me “youre perfect the way you are” but its hard to believe it when no one else thinks so. Its hard when people are constantly whispering about you, when people go to such lengths to make me know that I will never be good enough, that I will always be the fat stupid ***** that no one wants. I feel like a waste of space, and I cant help believing that Im wasting your time just by writing this. I hate myself.
I hate myself, I’ll never be as good as my sisters. Theyre popular, they’re gorgeous, they’re talented, they’re great singers, they’re funny, they’re great writers, they’re thin, they’re active, they spend all day texting and talking to their friends, because they have so many and all their friends love them. I feel so pathetic when standing next to them. Ugh, I just hate myself.
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You sound exactly like my bff tyanna…
Just love yourself for the person who you are. Forget what other people think about you. I’ve never cared about what people think about me. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but you have to just believe in yourself and do your best.
You have to look for the good in yourself!
If you think you’re fat (although I’m sure you’re not and other people just make you feel that way) can’t you exercise? It doesn’t have to be hard, ride a bike or something? You burn more calories in the cold, where you live is a plus. You probably aren’t ugly or stupid either. It’s just the way you feel, and it’s other people’s faults. If you want to get smarter, study more? Idk, just do your best. You are good enough! I wish I could start eating. The acne has to do with your age (I’m 14 it’s obnoxious, I know), it’ll get better.
You aren’t a *****! If you need someone to talk to, you can email me at “freezinginfire@ gmail.com” just delete the space.
I understand what you mean by whispering too. My ex spread a bunch of rumors about me and people always look at me weird and avoid me and stuff.
Don’t compare yourself to anyone. Be happy with yourself, or if you aren’t, instead of hating yourself use it as determination to get better. I really hope I helped! You’re important, I understand some of your situation.