Today was shitty…
The few friends I have are mad at me and won’t talk to me.
My parents are fucking assholes.
I’m sick of people at school.
I want to die. It’s that simple, every little thing that possibly has been able to has sucked lately.
Or maybe it’s just me…
unacceptable…
unappreciated…
unaccepted…
unheard…
unnoticed…
HATED!
It probably was a good day for anyone normal. I guess it is just me.
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Look im not gonna start with the “everything is gonna be alright” bullshit,i consider myself a “realist” so im gonna tell ya what i honestly think.
Ive been in that boat,back in highschool,had no one,NO ONE at all to talk to,to say what i felt. Ive always been kind of a lone wolf,and kids would take you as a weirdo just because you dont fit in the social stereotype.
If one thing makes me SICK is why ppl consider suicide when they cant seem to be socially successful,having lots of friends/being in a relationship.If they dont “fit”,they feel like uber failures and dont deserve to live.
This is your life,ISNT? Theres no reason on why you should follow the stereotypical life as the idiot box(aka tv) shows us. First of all,grow some love for YOURSELF. Thats the key.
Try to find a hobby,something that can put your mind at ease,something that can take you to a peaceful state of mind.Drawing,music,sports,videogames,etc,etc.
You only live once.You make your path.All that? is just temporary.Grow some love for yourself,create goals and try as hard as you can.
Faces will come and go as you walk your path.
Dont let this bullshit throw you down
Hope this can help you in some way..
DiYova
You are not alone, actually. My day was also shitty. I thought very hard about and considered admitting myself into the psych ward again. I mean I feel sometimes like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders when I really don’t. And so I feel just as you described…un…everything, at times. So maybe it is just you…but it’s you and another, me. And there’s others, still. Sometimes we do these things to ourselves and we have no power over it until we finally outline our problems and figure them out.
@DiYova- It’s nice to see some realism everyonce in a while.
People don’t just ignore me though, it feels like everyone is trying to make my life worse. This isn’t a passive agressive thing it’s a “get the fuck away from me” type problem. Seems like everyone wants to participate.
It’s kinda my life I guess. The two and a half hours of daylight after school are mostly mine, I’ll get more time in the Summer.
I like music, play piano, a little guitar. That helps me relax, but I can’t exactly take either of those things with me.
I’m trying to like myself more, but it’s hard to reassure yourself of something with people going out of their way to directly contradict you all the time.
@Tom Davis- Thanks, I guess I wasn’t the only one whose day sucked, but it felt like it.
I know what the problem is, to sum it up, crappy parents and aggressive people who’ve heard too many rumors about me. I’m not saying they’re not true, but no one would know about any of what happened if I didn’t trust someone who I thought was a friend.