Everyone has a dark side.
It’s there, even if we don’t want to admit it. Way deep down inside of us, hiding in the very darkest corners of our subconscious, but when it comes out and reveals itself to us, it’s frightening.
Isn’t it?
NO. Not for me at least. It’s not easy knowing there’s a side of you that could be dangerous, that could even hurt yourself or others, but it’s not there all the time. I mean, I don’t always feel it. Then again, I have a hard time feeling anything at all, at least not any of the emotions normal people feel. Still, it’s not really scary. At first it can be, but it doesn’t have to be. The first step is accepting that it is there and that there is something you can do about it.
The feeling isn’t just going to go away if you ignore it. Inside every single one of us, there’s a big bad wolf just waiting to come out to play. We have to let it once in awhile, we have to find a healthy way to control the wolf, take it out for a few big meals every now and then. If we do that, the urges will subside for the time being, but they will never, EVER completely leave us. No matter how bad we want them too.
As children we were told to not talk to the strangers, and at first that’s what that wolf inside of us is. But I saw screw what those fairy tales taught us or nursery rhymes, the people who wrote them just hadn’t seen there big bad wolf yet, but he’s there, he is ALWAYS there. So make friends with him, he won’t bite…much.
Who’s afraid of the big bad wolf?
5 comments
its not so easy to define the beast you talk about. all that you consider to be ‘bad’ could be another’s greatest desire. like suicide is for others. normal people tend to condemn the suicidal, they see it as bad and evil, but we see it as salvation. you cant put our desires into terms of good and evil… theyre simply desires. theres no controlling desire. you can either ignore the ‘big bad wolf’ or you can enslave yourself to him. both options seem to lead to the same place… bleak, miserable existence.
i get what ur saying but no one wants to be suicidal. No one wants to have these feelings that death is the only option, but we cant get rid of it. might as well make nice with it.
i agree with you violet. but im more attached to my ‘big bad wolf’ than others. everytime im told im better he comes back. i cant get rid of him. . . . and i dont want to. and i love your writing btw
KirstyM: Thanks! I know how you feel, not wanting to get rid of it. part of me does but the other part of me thinks “what would happen if he weren’t there?” it’s like, who would I be if I wasn’t this way? I don’t know…it’s kinfd of scary to think about.
I know this was several months ago, but I need to reply. . . Sorry. I know exactly what you mean. I usually try and avoid thinking about that part of me nowadays, but when it appears to be all that I consist of, it proves rather difficult. I just want to hand it over, I truly do.