She felt the weight of the world.
Put upon her shoulders.
The pain, the sorrow.
like boulders.
She cried.
She pleaded.
But alas,
She was defeated.
this fragile being
once so beautiful.
was broken.
And the people she was associated with
the ones she called her friends.
left her like a hurricane.
swept off by the wind.
i guess they were just fakes.
guess it was pretend.
And then one day this shattered girl
finally gave in
she stopped this life charade
and surcomed to darkness,
and now this pure white dreamer,
is hollow and heartless,
Her only escape is her poetry,
so she writes
and lusts to be free.
but she cant be.
she is trapped in me.
she is in my head.
she whispers constantly,
that “we” should be dead.
she is tearing out my soul.
she is taking me away…
making me un-whole.
Last night she filled my head.
she controlled my every move,
maybe i’m just crazy,
but she almost made me jump,
but I took over my body,
and told her
“That’s enough!!!!!”
for once I had control,
I took back who I was,
I took back what she stole
and I’m sorry everyone…
she wasn’t thinking…
I wasn’t thinking.
We weren’t thinking…
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As of today I am re-naming this account from xXwaiting4thelightXx to *~I am hope~*… because I am… Hope.
Sincerely, Jacqueline xx
6 comments
i sware if ther wasnt fucking water between us id hug you thank god iv been crying all day throt we lost you xxxxxxxxxxx
@hope: you are the only one who holds power to your own emotions, so dont let it get the best of you, fight the pain, and you will make it through.. <3
@whyidontno…be strong, wipe those tears away, u will see one day how beautiful life can be, and how much u truly deserve <3
@why i dont kno
I can’t even fully express how sorry I am, I didn’t mean to worry you. the comment you made on my goodbye was the main source of my strength to fight back. I’m sorry i’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry… :’/
dont need to be sorry im just glad your safe you helpt me out of a lot of shit in my life and its been but a week remeber if you need eney thing im here love you xx
heres my emale for if im not on zdkx@btinternet.com
This makes me sad because I know what it’s like to lose someone like this… I really hope you both end up at least partly happy in the end – a death is never something that you can forget, and the possibility of one happening to someone you care about is horrible, so I really am sorry this is the case… 🙁