At one point we all are. From 5 going on 15 or 50 going on 5, at one point we need our kiddish selves as a sort of comfort. For example. A young man, 25 years of age, is expected to take needles and stress like it’s nothing and keep on with his day with a chipper smile on his face. That’s what the public might see. To the private eyes, at home the young man may be hysterical, or keep a collection of comfort toys or (dare I even say) ‘toys’.
My comfort is now. What I need comfort is from the world. My toys, my plushies. The reason why I’m so addicted to the little squishy toys. Baby toys eyen, while I was in the hospital earlier this week for blood clots my parents got me a pirate octopus. And just today I found out it’s supposed to be like a pillow for newborns. Is the fact that when I was 5 or 6 I was so into action figures and not plushies that made me this way? Am I doomed of the constant urge to snuggle up against the pirate octopus (FYI, I named him Sammy) or my Gay-Pride Rainbow bear?
There is no fear when having a comfort toy. I know. But every time I get into a ‘childish’ mode, I seem to believe that the public world finds my mental ‘innocence’ cute. But in reality they see the teen cuddling up with baby’s toy or a teddy bear disturbing and unreal, like it’s a disease just to like one. Think of it this way: Would you rather see a young 4 to 6 year old with a baby plush toy in an airport, or a 15 year old half bruised young ‘man’ with a baby plush toy at an airport?
Just think about it. Give me an answer. Is it wrong to love a 5 years olds’ toy at 15 years old? And why is it so wrong to you ‘normal’ people?
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Super kawaii plushies are popular (with all ages) in Japanese pop culture. Big world out there with different kinds of people. No need to feel ashamed just for being yourself.
Does it matter? Yes it may or may not weird people out. I frankly do not have an affinity for them myself. And thus wouldn’t bother me if I saw it in public. It’s not a complete mental breakdown plusplushie, is it? Or PDA + plushie? I can’t deal with tonsil hockey with people. Congrats on the fact you can french kiss can you please move aside?
But if that is who you are than go you. This is your choice, yes it comes with consequences, most do. If this is something you need or want to do than do it. It hurts no one.
If you’re afraid of public outcry or vindication don’t do it in public. However if you’re angry at being forced to be ashamed at such an innocent act, stop apologising for yourself. People will think what they will.