I woke up today and just wanted to end it all. Im so alone and feel so broken. I wake up everyday and ask god why i put myself through it. I dont wanna be alone and watch the only person ive ever loved be with someone else. I was with him for 3 years and now all he wants us to be is fuck buddies? meanwhile he has a girlfriend whos addictied to heroine and has cheated on him 4 times in 5 months! Whats wrong with me?? Why would he rather be with someone like her but not me? i guess im just that worthless. The worst part is that i give him what he wants. Feeling wanted for the wrong reason is better than not feeling wanted at all. He knows how to sweet talk me and make me believe he still loves me. His mom hates me and we have always had to sneek around to be together. Now he wants to quit? All the promises he made to me and all the sacrifices i made for him were all just a waste. we almost had a kid together. but for his sake i had an abortion….i hate myself everyday for that.Im so afraid to be alone, to have no one to help me and be here for me. Im damaged goods, who’s guna want me now?
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girl, not only will it get better, it has to be better. theres nothing wrong with you, everything is wrong with him. i know that three years is a long time with someone, but think about how you could find someone who will love you the way that you love them. being alone is scary, but truthfully it is necessary for human life! pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel like you’re nothing….
its his loss for not seeing you as the gem you are. you deserve better than that selfish no good dirty rotten pig. forget him. you can do better than that. he’s not worth your tears. it might take a few trys but you will find the one that will treasure you more than life itself and all this will mean nothing. you sould be loved for who you are and you will be. that basterd that dumped you for that druggie slut will rue the dat he made that decision.
i dont say to be happy or whatever .. but i write a story of myself. maybe it gives you some perspective ..
i had a similar experience with another guy. i am over it after similar feelings you have now. i dont feel anything about that person after few years. i got numb about love after that person and seeing that the rest of the men are like this to a person that is caring and kind ( and you cant just change yourself).. now i dont think he and our relationship deserved any sorrow. i m not happy now but for a more abstract reason.
My exact story. Message me if you ever want to talk. <3
Define “damaged goods”. Everyone surely has their own interpretation in mind when they say that. Being in a previous relationship doesn’t disqualify you from being in another.
Quite frankly the standards for women to be in relationship are far, far lower than they are for men. Men just want to be respected and needed, but women want to be taken care of and provided for in addition to those other emotional needs. Men feel like they need to have all their shit together – finances, home, job, future – to even catch a girl’s eye, where as women only need to be fun, interesting, and slightly attractive.
Many men will take a damaged woman where as many women are not quite as likely to take a damaged man. So when you say you’re damaged goods and that your future is over, I have to respectfully disagree and ask you to look at the bigger picture.
The point is there are many men who will take a girl with a few skeletons in her closet as long as she isn’t absolute misery to live with. I’ve had my eye on a girl with an eating disorder for a while now. Do you really think I care if she eats or not? Yes and no. I accept her just how she is, but I’d like to help her feel better about herself. I’d like to help her be happier. If she chooses not to eat, I’m not going to judge her. I’ve got some broken places too – who am I to judge?