Ouch

I’ve been trying to write this post since Monday.. funny how this awful feeling didn’t go away at all since then it’s now two in the morning on a Friday. I miss my friends I regret cutting them off the way I did but I remember how badly my depression set in and I was doing everything I could to get rid of it so I distanced myself from them until I could get better. Earlier this week I messaged someone who I hadn’t seen for a while on Facebook and they couldn’t remember me at all and it wasn’t them not remembering me that hurt it’s just that it made me feel like a loser and like I if I were to die right then nobody would remember me or care and not only that  but it felt everything I’ve been through was worthless right then, I cried myself to sleep that night and I still feel very lonely